Saturday, October 04, 2014

Four letters, one word... time.

I remember a time where stringing together random words could describe everything I was feeling, everything under the sun for me, and lift the weight off of my shoulders. I haven't sat in front of an empty blog post in what feels like a long, long time. I still remember a time where my fingers could type furiously, dancing over the keys, only stopping for the next paragraph. That fluidity doesn't come any more, instead, there's pregnant pauses and heavy hearts.

Maybe some things you just don't get any longer with time. Time is that one scary concept, that one constant that is so unknown yet contributes to the very beauty of life. Time changes all, slowly, stealthily, before you even know that things are no longer one and the same. I guess we're so caught up chasing shiny diamonds that we don't stop enough to see just what time has done to us. Or is it that we're too scared to stop running, too scared to face time itself?

Time changes all... but does it? I believe in the very core of a person, that deep down there is something that is unshakeable, unmoveable. Call me a dreamer, but I believe in the very goodness of people. There's something deep within you that is the true essence of you. What makes you, you. It's only with time that we get disillusioned, with falls that we get hardened, with freedom that we get lost. But if we choose to look hard enough, beneath all the fronts and layers, beneath all the scars and bruises from life, that person you used to be - no, the person you are - is still very much there. You only have to look. Or rather, you have to choose to look. And look hard, you must.

So really, time changes all, but maybe it also changes none. 

Wednesday, February 08, 2012

But If You Must.

"May you never steal, lie, or cheat. But if you must steal, then steal away my sorrows, and if you must lie, lie with me all the nights of my life, and if you must cheat, then please cheat death because I couldn’t live a day without you."
- Bride, in the movie Leap Year (2010)

While my attempts to start blogging here again have been futile in the very least, I thought I'd share this quote from a movie I watched on the bus on the way home from Singapore yesterday. :)

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Day 14: Can You Smell Chinese New Year?

I've been making cookies with mum for CNY for as long as I remember and this year is no exception. Only that mum ditched me to go Genting Highlands so I was measuring and stirring away myself. -_-

But all is good, the smell of freshly baked chocolate chip and almond cookies immediately makes the world shiny again. Plus, it signifies that the Chinese New Year mood is in the air! :D

Can you almost smell them?

When I was at Jaya One doing grocery shopping earlier, I stumbled upon a Hush Puppies sale and grabbed two pairs. The pair of purple suede flats is something I've been eyeing since the beginning of the year but at a hefty RM 199, I just couldn't betray my bank account like that. But, today I found it at RM 80, which is too good to pass down. And the other pair, well let's just call it collateral damage. :p

With fresh cookies and new shoes, I'm now officially almost ready for the New Year. Just a teensy bit more shopping to go... :p

Friday, January 13, 2012

Day 13: A Week of Craving.

They say the way to a man's heart is through the stomach. Well, I like to think that's partially true for women as well, although it probably only works for sweet things as the journey to my heart is probably via my sweet tooth. :p

The Signature Dessert at ZenQ.
The weekend before was a scorching one and I had a terrible craving for something icy and cold - Taiwanese desserts! Adam almost as good as ignored my plea and so today, my colleagues obliged and teman-ed me for a round of ZenQ Taiwanese Desserts in Pyramid during lunch. :D

You know, people say only pregnant women have cravings. If my cravings are already so frequent and random now, I really fear for the day that I'm ever pregnant. Eep.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Day 12: Staying In.

Having a bottle of Herbalife and staying in office for lunch because I ate too much yesterday, all while browsing food blogs.

Am I a sucker for punishment or am I a sucker for punishment? Seriously, now. -_-

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Day 11: It's All in the Focus.

Today was one of those days at work where it was difficult to focus. Mainly because I run so many different projects at a time that more often than not, I get very scattered. Time is spent dabbing a little in Project A, then moving on to Project B before skimming through the updates for Project C. And then suddenly you remember you have a very important meeting to attend for Project F. As if that's not bad enough, HR calls you and tells you that you were specially selected for a cross functional group-wide Project W.

If I can stay on top of all these projects at the same time, I'd be quite proud of myself. But how many can I actually do well? Do I be merely mediocre at all, or neglect some so I can at least excel at a couple?

S'crazy, but at least I have a great bunch of colleagues that keep me sane. :)

So tonight's agenda: No thoughts about work. Recharge levels of optimism. Just going to focus... On me, myself and a friend named Bed.

Because hey, if I can't focus at work I might as well focus on sleep. Good night everyone :D

(And of course special post focus for Adam who came all the way here to have dinner with me - enduring Chilli Rush level 4 chicken wings and my constant complaints about my tummy about to explode from too much food - when a guy sees you as absolutely stuffed and completely dying from having to pee and can still laugh at you endearingly, you know he's the one :))